Oh wow, 25 is looking a whole lot different to how I wanted it to be.
I thought I’d be married or at least engaged by now with my own place. Instead I’m stuck in lockdown stressing about whether my job is safe.
I feel like people have a lot of expectations on how they want their life to pan out but if there’s anything COVID-19 and lockdown taught me it’s that life is, at times, very unpredictable and things don’t always go the way we think they will. The country is in yet another lockdown and just two weeks before my birthday I got my coronavirus test results back…. and it was positive. I’m lucky to work from home but my desk is set up in the living room. As my mum was tested negative, I had to self isolate in my bedroom. It’s a good job I enjoy my own company!
So in this post I’m going to be writing about my experience with Covid, lockdown 3.0 and the joys of a lockdown birthday. Everyone has had a lockdown birthday by now, right?
I am very lucky that the symptoms of coronavirus I had were particularly mild, even when I first started feeling unwell. I had an ever so mild cough that I thought would have just been a cold. I didn’t run a temperature and I didn’t lose any sense of taste or smell. The cough was mild (hoarse but irregular) and the main symptoms were chest pain and feeling headachy. As soon as I saw that text message confirming my covid test was positive I hit meltdown mode. Naturally, due to the way the media and news portray the virus I became terrified. I bought one of those oximeter things to check my heart rate and oxygen levels regularly along with checking my temperature. I went straight to Google and then Instagram! Finding recovery tips for Covid was extremely hard for me on Google, I was literally so shocked at the lack of information. The only thing I kept seeing was stay home and self isolate which is fine because I understand the seriousness but what about tips on how to actually recover? Upon posting my new illness on Instagram, I was faced with an overwhelming amount of love and get well soon wishes and more people than I expected reached out to me with advice. From laying on your stomach to breathing techniques. Even recipes for homemade remedies! Honestly, it was crazy. A Insta-friend of mine told me to keep a diary of my symptoms and it’s something I would recommend to anyone because it’s a good way of keeping an eye on whether you’re getting better or worse. In between the breathing techniques, home remedies and laying on my stomach I managed to refrain from getting bored and finally caved in to the Bridgerton hype. I started feeling better around day 13 but I spoke to some people who’s symptoms took longer to ease. However I have noticed that after going back to work I was coughing periodically again. After another swift Google search I learned you can relapse with Covid and sometimes the relapses are worse, especially if your initial sickness was mild. Great…
A couple of weeks later was my 25th birthday and to be honest, I didn’t feel like I was hitting a milestone at all. It was my first birthday without my dad and Christmas itself was hard. So yeah, I wasn’t in the mood for celebrating at all but my mum made a huge effort and it was really cute. As I get older I quite prefer the quiet celebrations now! Maybe I would have felt somewhat different if it wasn’t lockdown but I guess we’ll never know.
I think lockdown 3.0 has been the hardest for a lot of people. Whilst I am used to having to stay in, I feel like this lockdown has made me so lazy. I am constantly tired and even though I’m working from home (don’t get me wrong I’m thankful I have a job) the days just feel like they roll into one. So much so that weekends feel like lunch breaks these days!
Nevertheless, during these very unpredictable times, we shouldn’t be too hard on ourselves when we have bad days. We are all human after all.
If you have any further advice on dealing with coronavirus or any tips in general, feel free to leave them in a comment below. I’m sure they will come in handy for someone!